Like button


Sunday, November 27, 2011

Pink RockStar...Dear God...

Dear God I want to take a minute, not to ask for anything from you, 
simply to say thank you for all I have.
hi friends and family,
Thanksgiving weekend was wonderful for many reasons. We feel that we have so much to be thankful for. Me health and my family and my close friends who have continued to step up and support us.
The big scare is over, but, what is left behind is still the scars of what we have been through in the last three months, and the pain of reconstruction. It is hard to describe this place...I know that the cancer is gone, I know that I am in the healing phase, I know that I should be exhaling and jumping for joy. I can't yet. I look in the mirror and I am reminded every day of what my body has been through. The scars and the places that still won't heal...I am frustrated at the not healing, but, I know it won't be forever. I do have my appetite back...great, just in time for Thanksgiving! I am going to have to really focus on my nutrition, the chicken is on the counter waiting to be grilled. Going to the grocery store to stock up on green stuff. I did get a DELISH salad from a friend that had kale in it, I think I am going to chop up some tonight from the week. 
Those that still show up are the ones that have made the difference for me personally. I love you for it.
This weekend, I was able to be with family that I love dearly, got scolded by Aunt Fran for doing too much.
(it made me smile, because I love her so!)
I got my Christmas tree..we will decorate it today. It is a little early, but, I think it will be a fun distraction. I was able to see old friends, who brought an angel of a little girl to brighten my day! I was able to teach a step risers, didn't use my arms, and it was FUN! I was able to welcome back to Greenville a family that we love very twins and all.
I went to the Plastic Surgeon Tuesday for my weekly visit. The stitches appear to be healing well. I laugh and call my boobs those from the Bride of Frankenstein...stitches and zigzags. There are still some issues with healing, and I am worried about needing more cutting and stitching. I will find out on Tuesday. I did get an expansion on Tuesday, which is fun and makes me hurt all at the same time! I am not quite sure about these large 'boobies!' They really are tight, sore, get muscle spasms and are not very pretty. Sleeping is hard, Chan told me I wimper all night in my sleep. I think it hurts when I move or roll over.
my superhero...
some really happy things for me...
taught my first 1 hour spin class...oh joy! I was so happy to do it, really focused on using my legs, not arms, was able to pull it off without teaching off the bike much!
taught my first step was JOYFUL to be able to move and it really didn't hurt at all...I did need a big nap that afternoon, but, it was worth it.
I get to take a nap everyday without having to be sorry or apologetic.
I am supposed to see our medical oncologist next week, we will talk about post surgery care and treatment.
I hope that your long weekend was wonderful and know that we love all of you...your love and support is so appreciated.

No comments:

Post a Comment


Related Posts Plugin for WordPress, Blogger...

FitBlogger Member

Fitness Blog

Blog Frog